Turned away

So i worked a late shift on Sunday night. I got home around 2am. H said the next day that Victor was being really crazy and trying to scare her. She heard the doorknob rattling as if someone was trying to get in, but it was just an auditory hallucination. She was in a bad state and resumed cutting herself with her insulin needles. Obviously, the cuts are only skin deep. No big deal, really, but she told me that she'd had some suicidal ideation. However, she said she didn't try to act on it; it was only fleeting. This whole business kind of went on and she'd cut herself again and finally i decided i'd had it with the whole mess and told her she was definitely going into the hospital, where i assumed they'd keep for another 4-5 days like the last couple of times.

I did a little bit of punching, too. Not her! Christ, no! I punched the trash can, and i think that was the day i head-butted my PC (which is running just fine, more or less, thanks). I also somehow bruised my knee. I think it was on a door. Oh and i threw my mouse pretty hard down the hallway. Frustration got the better of me.

Shortly before we were to head out the door, she had to take some insulin and did it right in front of me. She didn't appear to know what she was doing. She seemed automatic and not present. When we got outside, she went in one direction while i went another. I got in the car and made it to where she was, maybe 80 yards away or so.

They didn't keep her this time. I guess they must have had some space issues. They said she didn't fit the criteria for holding her there so they were just gonna release her.

She's now on Haldol in addition to her other meds. She's been a little more stable. I worry about the combination of Haldol and Geodon, because the pharmacist said she had to override it and mark that i had been advised and understood that an interaction can happen resulting in heart arrhythmia. Sigh.

Also, i had to take a third day off of work in as many weeks. We only get one day per month. They were really shitty with me. Just really snotty about it. Fuck 'em. I'll find another job soon i hope. I went ahead and assumed i was fired since they strongly suggested it would happen. Weh.