H, my SO, is staying home today. Her alters are very agitated so she can't go to work. One of them (Cathy) is trying like mad to hurt her. I've got this covered, but DAMN this is difficult emotionally.
On top of that, i'm super tired from staying up all night worrying. Thankfully, H is sleeping now. I left a message on her psychiatrist's voicemail asking if there's anything i can try. She's still very new at seeing psychedoctors and having prescriptions and getting the help that she needs. So maybe we just need to ramp something up, or ramp something down, medicine-wise. She's not quite calm enough to meditate.
My knuckle still hurts a little from yesterday, when i punched a wood & cord style baby gate we use for the dogs. It was the most punchable object around at the time, and her alter Cathy had just scratched the hell out of H's leg after having promised me that she wouldn't do it again.
I know that punching things is counterproductive. I just needed to do it at the time. I don't usually go around punching things. That's part of the reason i made this blog. I need ventilation. Things have been... difficult.
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